June 1, 2007
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Assignment Scare
This whole week I was worrying about my assignments. One of them I got back a week earlier didn't turn out well.. which made me paranoid towards the ones still about to come back.
Last Monday I had a lecture for the assignment I was expecting back in the week.. a revision lecture. I realised that many of the things my lecturer discussed weren't discussed in the assignment!!! That assignment was 40% of my final mark... and a group report.
I was feeling sad and demoralised the whole week, what if this assignment turned out bad? I didn't like the fact of letting my groupmates down.. furthermore.. I'm already so delayed in my studies. I didn't want another bummer. I felt so lacking of faith.. but I was constantly reminded every day that I need to believe. The night before I got our assignment back I was one nervous wreck.. then I read the title of my devotional material.. "Your God is too small". It felt like someone was pointing the finger at me saying I didn't have enough faith... arghh.. bummer. I admit that I wasn't totally at ease.. perhaps God was telling me that I should have been.
Then came the day we got our assignment back... our group was reserved for the last to receive our assignment. I was worried we failed.. perhaps we did go off topic. I was wrong.. the situation was way worst than that. The tutor suspected my part of plagraism. That would mean that we won't receive any marks for this assignment. That'll be as good as failing the whole subject. We went to see the lecturer to sort things out.. and he said he'll get back to us the next day.
God was really testing my faith - stretching it like crazy. I knew.. and no matter what happened so far at that point I didn't want to blame God for any of it nor did I want be angry at Him. I just declared that He is in control of all things and nothing is impossible for my God!
The next day.. I got an SMS from one of my group members.. Sean Hewitt - we got a credit =)
MY GOD IS REAL!
