It's almost spring! Love's in the air! Like somethings about to explode into a great feast of joy..
How does it feel like? Dilemma.
It's the most confusing feeling.. with thoughts of go and don't flashing at you at the same time. It's a clash between personal desire and the reality of things which goes against your favour.
It's as subtle as the dreams of buying a Ferrari.. but what you could really afford is a Kancil. Dreams which are only ideal in your mind but is nothing close to what dreams can reach in reality.
It's a mesh of stupidity and smarts with the thinness line between them.. with one moment you could say that what you did was smooth and the next move was extremely dumb.
It's a major distraction a person starting a new OCF center with many 3rd year assignments DOESN'T needs and would absolutely have none of.
Yet the heart and mind still plays games.
A loosing game.
Relapse. The heart says go but the mind says no, "Look around. No way. You'll only stumble. It's a one way. Don't be an idiot. You don't have time. What for? It's not mutual."
Then God speaks, "Lay back. Wait. Seek first My Kingdom."
I shall wait for the next spring of my life to come.
