March 5, 2008
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A Very Different Semester
Somehow this semester doesn't feel the same. It's officially my 5th semester (minus the two summers) and yet this feeling is new. The early semester enthusiasm isn't there.
Maybe it's the after effects working in the real world for two months.. life was so predictable. So fixed. Now life's charterable again. I am my own boss so to speak, not needing to suck up or enslave myself to someone else.
Maybe it's the new job I have at meeting point - knowing I can earn enough to cover my expenses. Again, feeling more in control of my life. Perhaps the start of full independence.
Perhaps it's the feeling of leading something great and doing something significant for God.. something you don't wanna fail, but not in the academic sense. It can either be a legacy or a bitter thorn. Yet still charterable, still unknown.
It also may be the effects of leaving home a second time. It's made me numb.
It's probably a combination of everything above. I really don't know what God has in store for me this year. It's just so unpredictable.
I just know it'll be good.
